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Its been my ambition for almost a decade to do an english version of Xelloss' Slayers Next image song. I'm rather fond of the lyrics I came up with.

On the other hand I will be the FIRST to admit that my singing voice is really, really terrible- both flat and nasally. I'll also blame the crappy mic. If someone else would like to take a crack at singing this, I would be absolutely delighted!



Lyrics under the cut )
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Fess up, who was the last person you thought about kissing?
My bt. I'm not a kissy person.

Ever walked in on your friends having sex?
Nope.

Ever sang to the person you liked?
Yes. 

Are you a shy person?
Only in large groups

What are you excited for?
D&D tonight

Do you have memories that you want to forget?
Yeah, some of my more foolish childhood incidents.

Are you happy?
No.

Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 months from now?
Yeah.

How long does it take you in the morning to fix your hair?
30 seconds, since we've cut it.

Have you ever played Spin the Bottle?
Nope.

Have you ever passed out on the bathroom floor?
...yes. But its not what you think. It was from dehydration.

Would you rather love one person or have many short relationships?
Many short relationships. Me and commitment don't agree

Do you ever feel curious about how people see you?
I hope they think I'm as evil and awesome as I am.

Have you ever broken a couple up?
Sorta? I don't really think so. 

When is the next time you will kiss someone?
When I see my BF later today.

Do you find smoking unattractive?
No, its fucking hawt.

Do you remember who you liked on New Years?
Hmm, can't think of anyone specific.

Are you someone who worries too often?
Not really.

Could things possibly get any better?
Yes. Yes they could.

What should you be doing right now?
Working on the catalogue.

Have you consumed alcohol in the past 24 hours?
Captain Morgan on the rocks. :D

Have you ever been in a car accident?
Not a significant one

If you could have something right now, what would it be?
I have a list. Lets just start with $1billon.

Have you ever cleaned up someone else's vomit?
I've never even cleaned up my own.

Is there anyone home?
yeah.

Would you ever work at McDonalds?
Nooooooo

Are there some songs you can't listen to because they remind you of someone?
Evanescence, My Tourniquet. 

What was the last thing you bought?
Some My Little Ponies for Bunny.

What's on your mind?
How much my left arm hurts.

Does your hair have layers?
Kweh?.

Do you believe that there's good in everybody?
No.

Last car you were in?
My mom's Jetta.

Last movie you saw?
Despicable Me

Are you easily scared by horror/thriller films?
No, but I adore them.

Will you be in bed within twenty minutes?
No way, I wish.

Do you think that you’re a good person?
Gods I hope not.

Do you honestly believe that good things come to those who wait?
Only if they work for them.

Is there someone who you can spend every minute with and not get annoyed?
Only one person. :)

Do you still speak to any of your classmates from elementary school?
Elementary school, no. Middle School yes.

Linkara

Jul. 5th, 2010 11:01 pm
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So, Linkara's "review" show is becoming less review, and more narrative self-indulgence, which, honestly, I wouldn't mind since I like him so much, but it makes me want my OWN self indulgent vlog series. :/
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Why do people make it so hard for me to just enjoy myself? Is it deliberate? Or is it just another case of everyone who likes me being womanish, hysterical and entitled? It seems to happen every time I get close to someone. FML.

-Mordax
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Well, neither of us usually answers these questions, but this one seemed to be too good to pass up,

Our birth name "Greer" is the name we've both had to answer to since childhood, obviously. As such, while it applies to both of us, neither really "owns" it. We've come to think of "Greer" as a gestalt entity; the two of us functioning together. The person that those who know us as one person see.

As a person who is male, but female-bodied, I very much appreciate the androgyny inherent in the name. I'm sure people who see it written down without meeting me have no idea what gender to expect. On the otherhand, as above, it's not really *my* name. I did, a number of years ago, go searching for a name to call my own. I tried on a few, but I ended up with David, which I really think expresses my inner self. Traditional, solid, unassuming, etc. A lot of trasgendered guys that I'm familiar with pick very 'trendy' and modern names, which I suppose is nice, but it feels a biut cliche and "not me". I'm not an Aidan or a Cameron. Maybe an Arthur or a James, but really, I think I settled on my ideal name long ago.

-David

I like names. I collect them like old ladies with Precious Moments statues. I have a ton; and Im not particularly fond of "Greer" its just so plain and unimpressive. But I already talked about my name a while ago here

-Mordax
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So I did it. Swallowed my anxiety about it, and went and got a professional haircut for the first time in over a decade.

And I am so glad I did. Not only does it look great (in my opinion) but its great to just have the weight of it "off my shoulders" but literally and metaphorically.

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Your result for The Four Elements Test...

Water Personality

Creativity, Intuition, and Knowledge

With water as your dominant nature, you are adept at working with your senses and are a highly creative individual. You are open to new ideas and think fast on your feet, always taking the well being of others into consideration when you make a decision. You are likely devoted to making things the best they can be, and your flexibility and impulsivity open you up to try anything just to learn and grow. Professions such as artists, writers, actors, advertising professionals generally share water as their dominant element, though other careers can incorporate this element into their field. You will bring abstract thinking and a natural sociability to your work.



Water elements are prone to being highly sociable. Even if they are introverted, they enjoy investing in relationships and take time to understand the people around them. Water personalities have a unique ability to remember people’s feelings, which enables them to avoid hurting others. A sense of wonder, openness to new ideas, and hunger to learn new things are all hallmarks of the water element, along with an appreciation for art, music, and beauty. In excess, however, their natural altruistic nature can lead them to become paranoid or too devoted to others to the point that they overlook their own well-being.



If you’re an extroverted water personality, try spending some time alone once in a while. It’s not a punishment! You’ll give your brain some time to recharge. Introverted water personalities, because of your desire to learn and intense curiosity, you might overload your brain. Introverted or extroverted, it’s important to give yourself time to relax and recharge. Read a book, practice meditation (become an observer of your surroundings and your thoughts), or go for a walk. Water personalities need peace to balance out their high energy nature.



No matter what, always continue to explore the world and share your sense of curiosity with others. Your thirst for new ideas, your desire to express your feelings, your creative approach to problems, and your ability to share emotional bonds with others makes you a remarkable and inspiring person.





What similarities do the other elements share with the Water Personality?


Based on the ranking of the other three elements, the following information might give you a clearer idea of which areas of the Water Personality are more prominent (for example: if Earth was your second-highest element, then the qualities that Water and Earth share might be more prominent in your personality).



Fire's Relation to Water ~ you are 42% Fire


- high emotional energy


- excitable


- deep thinker / daydreamer



Wind's Relation to Water ~ you are 38% Wind


- prefers possibilities


- open to new ideas and adventurous


- enjoys creative expression



Earth's Relation to Water ~ you are 26% Earth


- people-oriented and intuitive


- enjoys one-on-one company and listens well


- considerate / sensitive towards others' feelings




What are some of the differences between the Water Personality and the other elements?


If you felt as though some of the information about the Water Personality wasn't exactly like yourself, then here is some information about the other elements' energy levels, thinking patterns, and relationship styles that might appear in your personality.



Fire's Differences from Water ~ you are 42% Fire


- Fire prefers concrete facts and figures


- Fire has a structured belief / religious system and sticks to it


- Fire prefers to talk than to listen, and is less in-tune with others' feelings


Wind's Differences from Water ~ you are 38% Wind


- Wind is relaxed and carefree


- Wind enjoys casual or open relationships


- Wind is emotionally stable or even apathetic



Earth's Differences from Water ~ you are 26% Earth


- Earth prefers to stick to real, hard facts and what can be sensed


- Earth is a calm and emotionally stable element


- Earth is traditional and conventional




And just if you're curious about the other elements, here are brief summaries:



Fire Personality - Energy, Strength, and Success


Fire is an excitable, high-energy element with an appreciation for concrete facts and logic when solving problems. They strive for success and to gain respect, and connect well with others on a level of thought.



Wind Personality - Playfulness, Spontaneity, and Excitement


Wind is an easy-going, low-emotional energy element with an openness to new ideas and abstract manner when solving problems. They enjoy free and casual relationships, and appreciate spontaneity, excitement, and variety.



Earth Personality - Stability, Compassion, and Practicality


Earth is an emotionally stable element with a great sense of practicality / logic when solving problems. They appreciate order and tradition, and are loyal / have compassion for others.

Take The Four Elements Test at HelloQuizzy

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I'm a O76-C1-E48-A1-N66 Big Five!!

Openness to Experience/Intellect
High scorers tend to be original, creative, curious, complex; Low scorers tend to be conventional, down to earth, narrow interests, uncreative.
You are relatively open to new experiences. (Your percentile: 76)

Conscientiousness
High scorers tend to be reliable, well-organized, self-disciplined, careful; Low scorers tend to be disorganized, undependable, negligent.
You probably have a messy desk! (Your percentile: 1)

Extraversion
High scorers tend to be sociable, friendly, fun loving, talkative; Low scorers tend to be introverted, reserved, inhibited, quiet.
You are neither particularly social or reserved. (Your percentile: 48)

Agreeableness
High scorers tend to be good natured, sympathetic, forgiving, courteous; Low scorers tend to be critical, rude, harsh, callous.
You find it easy to criticize others. (Your percentile: 1)

Neuroticism
High scorers tend to be nervous, high-strung, insecure, worrying; Low scorers tend to be calm, relaxed, secure, hardy.
You tend to become anxious or nervous. (Your percentile: 66)
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I am sick. Sick sick sick sick sick.

There is something deeply wrong with me.
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Quilava M 16 Mild Afrit
Flaaffy F 16 Hardy Lil Zeus
Gastly M 16 Rash Jasper
Wooper F 15 Lax Whoopdie
Hoppip M 15 Bashful Delion
Spearow F 16 Hasty Starling


Just out of Ilex Forest.
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Since religion, the occult, etc, gets discussed with some frequency here, I thought it might be helpful and/or interesting to some of you, to know what my real, familial religious background has been. The answer is... total shambles.

198X-90: Unitarian Universalist Church in LA:
The first church David and I remember attending is this one, in LA when we were between 2 and 4 years old. Looking back it was really more of a social club than a church, but I think our parents felt obligated to attend some kind of services now that they had children. In fact, dad taught Sunday School to 8 year olds at this church, which, if any of you know our dad, should elicit a shudder. We were apparently well enough liked there that they gave us a basket of money when we moved across the country. Or maybe they just wanted us gone.

The most memorable thing for me about the UU in LA was out behind the building was an enormous Weeping Willow tree that sort of made its own, natural room. We would run off and sit by it quite often, and it may have counted as our first magical experience because I remember believing that there were fairies that lived there. Unfortunately it happened so long ago I no longer remember whether I genuinely believed there were fairies there for an outside reason, or had simply convinced myself there were because it was neat. I mean come on, I was three years old.

1991ish: Unitarian Universalist Church in rural NY: At this point we had moved from LA and settled into a more suburban life. Mom and dad still apparently felt the need to see to our religious tutelage, but little did they know that I was going to put the breaks on that and HOW.

At this point we were 5ish, and David and I were beginning to delineate ourselves more, mentally, though neither of us knew about the other then. So here we were, in an attic room with 6 other kids and a nice young lady sunday school teacher, when, and I SHIT YOU NOT, I declared that I worshipped Satan. But that's not all, I mean, it's UU, they probably would have been okay with that. BUt then, I took a pair of scissors and I hacked off a lock of the teacher's hair. What was I going to do with it? I sure as hell don't know. But that marked the end of our religious upbringing for quite some time.

The most remarkable thing for me about the UU in NY is I don't know how I even knew about Satan at that age.

1993?94?: Wicca Circle in rural NY: We still lived in the same 'burb in UNY at this point, but no attempts at organized religion had been attempted in quite some time. In fact, this period of religious activity didn't actually involved David and me in any way, but it made such an impression that I include it here anyway.

My dad, who is an old, crazy hippie (and that only begins to describe him) high priest-ed for a wicca group made up of teen-aged girls from the apartment complex, and our then-resident couch-surfer, Larry.

I remember not knowing what the hell was going on, except that they kept a chalice in the basement; and the one time I snuck down and sat on the stairs all I heard was some weird chanting. Shortly afterwards I swiped my dad's book 'Bucklands Guide to Witchcraft', and the whole thing really lost its appeal in a swarm of boring.

The most remarkable thing for me about the Wicca Circle was that it was my first real-life exposure to magic and paganism, and I was distinctly unimpressed.

1995-97: Presbyterian Church in the City: I guess when we moved from our apartment in the 'burbs to a sufficiently distant area of the city dad felt it was time to give the whole 'God' thing a try again with me. I think they mostly did it to try and make friends, or maybe they did it because the pastors lived a couple of houses from us and had invited us.

This was my first brush with real, solid organized religion, and we were actually involved in the church for a good length of time, considering the past. David, as I understand it, actually made a go of the whole 'believing in God' thing around this time. For me it was more of a social thing, as I had learned how to behave in public, and we were put, because of our precocious and advanced nature, with the young Teen-age youth group, instead of with the Sunday School. Or maybe they thought I was a teenager; we had boobs at the point. I donno.

Anyway, we were actually pretty involved with this church; going every Sunday, attending youth-group functions like the sleep-over at the church. I slept in a pew! That was kind of cool. We even were a camp counselor at the Vacation Bible Camp the church held, where I insisted on putting 'Dragon' on our name-tag, because the woman wouldn't allow 'Demon'. We actually attended the church longer than the rest of the family, and dad walked us down the block or two from our house every Sunday without Mom or our brother for a couple of months. However, eventually my crush on the pastor's son faded, and David's faith in the Lord petered out, and we stopped going.

The most remarkable thing about the Presbyterian Church for me was how different it was compared to everything we'd been exposed to previously. It was my first experience with anyone of actual religious conviction.

1997ish: Church of Christian Science: Okay, I only ever attended two or three of these services (and Lectures!) with my then best friend, but it left a pretty big impact on me. We also hung out in the Christian Science Reading Room while her mother ran it, a few times. My greatest triumph here was sneaking around the church after service with my sweet, religious friend, and convincing her to help me steal gum from someone's office desk.

The most remarkable thing about Christian Science for me is how mind-numbingly, foot-draggingly BORING it was, in comparison with any other service I had attended. There wasn't even any singing!

1998/9: Catholic Church in the 'burbs in NY: This church we only attended because mom and dad were putting us and our brother into Catholic school. The church wasn't a requirement, so I don't exactly know what their logic was. Maybe mom wanted to find her relationship with god again, because I remember her trying to get dad to get baptized.

We didn't attend for very long, because honestly I couldn't *stand* it. Somehow these people made the gospel simultaneous my boring, AND more annoying than I ever remember the Presbyterians doing . I refused to take communion. I pretty much flatly refused to participate, and soon, I refused to get out of bed to attend.

The most remarkable thing about the Catholic Church for me was how much more into it I would have been if they still said the damned thing in Latin.

1998-2004: All Girls Catholic High School: Our parents, full of fear and loathing at the local public school system, forced me into an all girls Catholic School. This was awkward on several levels, because neither of really believed in God, let alone the Catholic one, I was getting into paganism, and David was starting to realize he wasn't female, while I was starting to realize I detested the company of females. But relevant here is that we were forced into mass at school every month or so, had to say prayers before classes, and were required to attend a myriad of theology courses.

This is where we really learned the most about Christianity, I think. We never got anything below a 90 in theology class, and have actually read most of the Bible, which I am sure many of you reading would be surprised to know. Its actually rather interesting if you take it as a competing mythology rather than a hard fact.

The most remarkable thing for me about our Catholic education is what it did to our vocabulary. To this day I can't seem to escape exclamations like 'Mother of God!', and make way too many biblical allusions for my own liking.

2001ish: Loki and the Norse ways: This chronology is really only meant to list my formal/parental religious upbringing, but I can't get away without mentioning this. When I was 15 years old I dreamed I was at a great feast, where all the Norse gods were, and on my left was Loki, who had invited me there. After some more research on the subject, I dedicated myself to him, as the only god in the only pantheon, in this world's mythology that was worth my time.

Various: My dad never could seem to make his mind up about what he believed, and what he thought I should believe. He's claimed at different times to be an Atheist, a Wiccan, a Voodoo Priest, an evil magician, a devout Catholic, and totally uninterested. It's all been very confusing.
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***Self***

The past, what, week and a half, has been a special kind of purgatory for me; a kind of experience many of you reading this could only imagine. My detractors would say that I could only imagine it as well. Before this, I was nearly ready to agree with them.

I don’t know how many of you are really aware of this, but for a while now it’s been an open secret that I, the Digimon Kaizer, was previous to that life, a mazoku in service to Xelloss and Lord Beastmaster. Some of you don’t even know what that is. I doubt any of you know what it really means.

More than a thousand years ago I sold my soul to the mazoku at the price of power and eternal life. While it was a major transition, it was really only another step down a path I had been walking since my early childhood. It was Beast Priest Xelloss who started me on the path of sorcery, and it was he who took me further down the path of destruction when he made me his true servant shortly before the kouma war.

Never in all those years of that life, or the accidental next, did I regret that transformation and bonding. Indeed thoughts of my master have often buoyed my flagging spirits in these my years bound to a human body. I await with anticipation the day that my master can break my chains and restore me to my rightful place by his side.

***Madness***
However, the mazoku spirit and the human brain/mind/body are almost catastrophically incompatible. Those of you who have seen Slayers know what happened to the Demon Dragon King Gaav. Imprisoned in a mortal shell for incarnation after incarnation he went mad from his conflicting human and mazoku urges and turned on the mazoku. He had his memories, his powers, and his servants, but still each successive identity, each birth and death made its mark upon his mind.

I on the other hand, am exiled here, a thousand universes from the world of Lord Ruby Eye; in a place where all of my magic can not light a candle.; can not summon a single imp. A world where the voice of my master is a whisper in my head that no other person can hear and I am hard-put to distinguish from the whisperings of my own mind.

Is it any surprise then, that as this body ages and matures my mind falls into that pattern the body has set for it? In a world where I am ridiculed and declared mad for service to my true nature, and can do nothing, NOTHING to prove its veracity, even to myself, is it a wonder that the lull of this body’s urges start to erode my will?

With even my master’s voice in absence for nearly a year, over the last few months the siren call has grown steadily more appealing.

***Doubt***
 
I have never, not even in my recent, darkest hours wondered whether or not I was evil. I am evil; I am vice and viciousness and wicked wonder. But when no one around you believes that you are a demon, and there’s no proof such a thing ever existed, it is easy to question whether or not you are one. And the body seizes on the moment of existential doubt and asks ‘even if you are a mazoku, what does it matter here and now? Disregard the voice in your head that says it is your master and maker and live life by your own agenda’.

The human mind is not built to serve; it is built first and foremost to survive, and secondly to lead. It is easy to swear reverence to an absent master who asks nothing of you.

But when a voice you can hardly understand returns after a long absence and gives you difficult, and time consuming orders, it is easy to bitterly decide that the voice is your own mind. For the body to tell you to do as you like.

***Purgatory***

Last week my mind was at war. The mazoku in me was overjoyed at my master’s sudden return and ready to do anything in his name; but the sullen, independent human was bitter and rebellious, and ready to stick its fingers in its ears and pretend that I heard nothing.

I was distraught. My last really conscious thought was begging, pleading with Xelloss to do something. Show me that I was really a mazoku, burn the human weakness from my soul; show me that he was truly my master.

After that I remember only fragments. Pain, mostly, and the idea of being pursued. But mostly searing, soul cleansing pain. And finally my master’s embrace.

I write now to you as a creature without self-doubt. With time, perhaps they will creep in again but for now: I am become chaos, destroyer of worlds.

And it’s party time.

-Mordax
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Wow, there is a surprising lack of decent iconnage in this journal.

Hi, I'm Vincent (NOT that Vincent- whichever one you're thinking of) and I and a few others will probably be making use of this space in the days to come. I hope we can get along, be friends, etc.

If you're looking for Mordax I'm going to say that she's.... ...not up to fronting right now, and hope that you all get that I mean she's pretty much catatonic. David is fine, and should be around with the rest of us.

Sorry if this causes any distress/confusion. Any questions you have can be directed to me personally, if you like.

Sincerly,

Vincent
(NOT that Vincent, really, stop thinking of him, he's not the only one with the name)
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i need to suffer for a while
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Who Do You Think You Are? Meme

List ten things that you think make you who you are. Try to list things you believe about yourself, not perceptions other people have about you. Then tag three of your friends to do this!

1. I am a genius
2. I am batshit insane
3. I'm evil, no really.
4. I'm pretty charming in an obnoxious sort of way
5. I'm over the top melodramtic
6. I have a fluid gender identity
7. I have an ego the size of Saturn
8. I'm an effective and eloquent communicator
9. I only care about people I consider worth my time
10. I'm not ashamed of any of the above things. In fact, I'm pretty proud of them.

-Mordax

Tagging:[livejournal.com profile] sletia [livejournal.com profile] underlankers [livejournal.com profile] soulspiritdebv
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You know you’ve been using a moniker for too long when it starts to feel like a name.

I don’t even blink when people call me Mordax anymore, even offline- I think of myself as Overlord Mordax more often than I do any other name. Saevitia, on the other hand still feels like a net name.

I guess it’s not surprising that I’ve gotten used to being Mordax. After all, I’ve had then name for ten years, and been using it actively online for over seven.

That’s right, it’s a name I came up with when I was 14ish. This should surprise no one. I was coming to terms with my identity as evil, and had declared my intention to become a super-villain. So naturally the first thing I needed was a name.

‘Mordax’ was the result of an hour or so with a Latin dictionary. I wanted something that sounded evil, and dark, but not too cartoony. Something in cool-points somewhere between Darth Vader and Doctor Robotnik, Points were awarded for actually meaning something sinister.

I don’t remember all the rejected possibilities, but I remember the way it felt when I came across the one I would use. Mordax just felt right on the tongue. The X of course, was a big plus, as was the ‘Mor/Mord’, which gave it just the right amount of audible association with death.

And it means ‘Biter’.

Well, even then I considered myself to have a sharp, biting wit. And of courses, I like to bite things (and people) so it really was perfect.

Mordax I would be.

You might be curious about the ‘Overlord’ in front of it (which, I might add, even though I drop between friends, I consider to be my proper title); that has a slightly less glorious origin.

You might surmise that I filched it from the ‘Evil Overlord List’, and this would be a good guess, but was not the case.

I was introduced to the title of Overlord by a man named Mark Latus who wrote epic Sailor Moon fanfiction in the 1990s. He had a character who declared himself overlord, whom I admired quite a bit.

Let me say this; if there had been a gender-neutral title for a royal despot I’d have picked that. But even back then I couldn’t stand the connotations of female epithets. Queen, Lady, Mistress (especially Mistress, eugh!) I could handle Duchess, but it didn’t go with the name. For some reason, Overlord struck me as a good compromise.

Plus, it just sounded fucking cool.

I love pseudonyms, and I can live with my birth-name, but I don’t think any other appellation will live up to Mordax in my mind. If I were the only person with this legal identity I might have it legally changed. But ah well.

Vivat Mordax!
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Ganked from [livejournal.com profile] darksumomo

"Reply to this post, and I'll tell you one reason why I like you. Then put this in your own journal, and spread the love."

Shocked

Jan. 15th, 2010 06:49 pm
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Well, it's my birthday today and nothing overtly horrible happened; I'm guessing by virtue of the fact that I wasn't at home all day.

We'll have to see how tomorrow, when we actually "celebrate" it goes.

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