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Saturday, November 21st, 2009 11:55 pm
Leave me a comment saying "I want to be evil."

I'll respond by asking you five questions so I can get to know you better (probably people I don't speak to all the time, XD).

Update your journal with the answers to the questions.


Include this explanation in the post and offer to ask other people questions.

1.You've seen your fair share of fandom wangst, and I'm sure you're in other fandoms, besides Digimon. What do you think was the biggest fandom blow up?


The biggest plain old fandom blowup I've ever been a part of (in fact in this case I was the instigator) is, as Fandom Wank called it "Terry Pratchett Murders and Grinds Up Stories". I was trying to make a point about how deconstruction/satire of story elements that are supposed to be held as wondrous and enchanting creates a cynical attitude and feeling. Unfortunately I was evidently insane when I wrote it didn't phrase myself very well and I came off sounding naive and ill informed, and then when I was attacked thusly in comments, I stayed around to fight. And I *kept* fighting and made a spectacle of myself in front of the internet. It was all rather amusing, but frustrating to argue with people who had already made up their minds about what I was trying to say, and wouldn’t listen when I tried to tell them what I was actually saying.

Plus, I got called a "vampire fundie" which is hilarious. I prefer the term "vampire purist". XD

2. I've seen that keeping my journal public, especially entries involving the Otherkin, can lead to massive problems personally. (Namely, that my kin have been used as ammunition against me). So I guess my question here is: why do you keep yours public

To be fair, keeping my journal open probably causes me more problems then it solves. On the other hand I'm not one bit ashamed of who or what I am and I'll have at it with anyone who thinks that I should be. As the Major in Helsing famously said, "Gentlemen, I love war." I love to argue philosophy, politics, religion, hell, I just love to argue, and no position is better than that of righteous indignation when someone insults your beliefs, out of ignorance, especially. At the end of the day I don't care whether Troll#967 agrees with me or not, so long as he leaves knowing that I don't "think I can shoot kamehameha out my butt" or am at risk of jumping off a building because I think I can fly. To quote xkcd "someone is wrong on the internet!" and its one of my petty joys in life to correct them at length. I good bout with trolls really gets the blood pumping and keeps my wits sharp. Plus, as I've said before, I'm a narcissist who's in love with the sound of their own voice.

David can, and does, lock his own posts; and I'll keep crossing swords with Anonymous.

3. What's the scariest memory trigger you've had from a past life?

Whoo boy, from a lighthearted one back to one in the deep pit of despair. The scariest memory event I've had was the first one, when I was 14 and didn't know what the hell was going on. I had nightmares that had me on the edge of a nervous breakdown. As I've said on my website, I basically relived a version of the events of Digimon 02 eps 20-21; the fall of the kaizer. But I've already talked that one to death; you can read about it on my website under "experiences" if you like.

I'll tell you about a different one that happened to me just a few years ago. I'm a pedestrian; I don't drive at all. I was walking with my brother Trevor over to the house of a friend of mine. It's a good walk, probably 2, 2 and half miles. 90% of the way there, there's a big, wide road that's always particularly busy, and the drivers don't tend to respect walkers very much, and will try to turn even when you're in the middle of the street and the sign says "walk". Well, the sign said "walk" and my brother took a step out into the road. All of a sudden, and with a feeling of almost physical force, I relived Osamu's death in an instant. It just passed right before my eyes. The car he was hit by, books flying, his stupid glasses laying on the pavement. Sobbing for him to be okay. Back in the real world 'm surprised I didn't freaking collapse. I *did* grab my current brother's wrist and pull him back for no damned reason. We had to wait for the next light. He already thinks I'm a freak, so at least I didn't have to explain to him why my heart was racing and my hands were shaking. It was a terrifying experience that made me feel incredibly stupid and embarrassed for freaking out for no reason in broad daylight.

4. If you could change one thing about yourself, appearance/personality/something that happened in your past, what would it be and why?

Toss up.
If I could change it just like that? I'd want to be male. I've never been comfortable in a female body, but cosmetic surgery just isn't the answer.

If I couldn't have that I'd want my brother to have been a sane, normal human being, responsibility for whom wasn't thrust on me at a young age. But maybe that’s asking too much.

5. if you could add one feature to the internet, what would it be? (And, of course, why). Me, personally, I'd like to add the "reach out and punch someone in the face through the monitor" feature, but technology's not quite there yet.

Food delivery service. I saw it on the Super Mario Super Show when I was like 6- they typed Pizza into the computer, and it printed out an edible pizza. That would just be awesome.
Sunday, November 22nd, 2009 05:19 am (UTC)
2. I tend to huddle in my little corner of LJ and keep away from people who might harm me, which is why my LJs are locked. Also, while I like to argue, after a while, I get frustrated and want everything to be over. Plus, I consider my Otherkin very personal (which is why I don't add people unless I'm sure they can handle the kin stuff).

But it's good for you that you can put up a fight and keep putting it up, regardless of how much flaming you get. It shows you're confident in who you are, at the very least.

3. Yeah, I've been poking around your website. I couldn't help it- curiosity. (is insanely curious) I, uh, love the idea of horrible memories and stuff like that...though it's not so much fun when the memory trigger is on you and you're getting waves of misery until you're locked out.

As soon as you said crossing a busy street, I thought of Osamu. X_X

4. That reminds me of a gag doujinshi that was posted on the Daiken community earlier. Osamu the ghost was brought back to life in Takeru...and demanded his Digivice back. lol

5. Yeah, food would be good for all the people who complain about being hungry online and not having anything to eat.

But I still like the idea of being able to reach out and punch somebody. XD (not so innocent look)

Sunday, November 22nd, 2009 05:26 am (UTC)
2. I can certainly understand wanting your journal to be a safe space. After all its called a "journal" which is almost like a diary, right? I use it that way, but really, if I didn't want my thoughts out in the open, I'd use paper. Its a public forum for my thoughts and feelings. :D

I'm the only one I need to be confident about who I am, although other people having the same confidence is a nice thing.

3. Well, horrible memories are the most exciting ones right? Parts of the website are sadly out of date, and other parts need grievous spellchecking assistance- I tend to rush my work to press when I'm feeling productive.

4. Heh. Yeah. I'm beginning to realize that siblings never really get along. I guess I liked Osamu better than Trevor, but that might just be because I was the younger in that case. Sometimes I think my brotherly relationship in this life is punishment for the one in my past. :/

5. OM NOM NOM ;)
Sunday, November 22nd, 2009 05:34 am (UTC)
4. I *love* Osamu...I've been obsessed with him for years. XD I read a fic where he didn't die and he was the Kaiser (in a complete AU where Osamu was never injured), but they made him into a new Hitler. I mean, yeah, he slapped Ken's hand and all in the past, and he had an attitude, but it's not like he was a monster...(and that's not counting the doujin where people have had him rape Ken...OH GOD)

Plus, he had an attitude because he was pressured. It's not like it was his fault.

2. I usually just use my journal to tell my friends what's going on. I used to be fairly well known in the Foster's community, and I don't want people to know the girl who writes MacxBloo has a fairy half breed, etc. Hence why my LJs are separate.

3. I rush through work too. I don't proofread enough. XD




Sunday, November 22nd, 2009 05:42 am (UTC)
4. Well, at least where I come from, Osamu probably would have become the kazier, (aside: you want to know why I spell it with a "z"? Because "Z"s are awesome!) or there wouldn't have been one at all. But that's because the Kazier was a "malignant entity" (Uh, me) mostly dormant in Osamu, awoken by the shock of the body's death and absorbed into Ken, so it really doesn't pan out at all in the universe that the show takes place in. Oh gods, Digimon porn. Hide me, please. T__T

2. Ah, things going on. A valid reason. yeah, I guess if I was still really active in any fandoms I might care that it would hurt my popularity, but then again, maybe not.

3. That's because proofing is for lameos! XD
Edited 2009-11-22 05:42 am (UTC)
Sunday, November 22nd, 2009 05:51 am (UTC)
I was going to say something bubbly and chipper, then I fell into contemplation. So you believe there are multiple universes with variations in each of them? (Whatever happened to Ryo, Milleniummon, and the Dark Spores in yours?)

I love the idea of alternate universes. There's so much possibility there.

As for Digimon pr0n, I like Daiken and Taito. But only if they're done right. So many people butcher Ken as an uke. He's not THAT submissive, OMG.

2. I'm not really active in any fandoms anymore. I post for Digimon, Pokemon, and Jimmy Neutron, but it's all on my LJ.

Sunday, November 22nd, 2009 06:00 am (UTC)
My beliefs are vitally hinged on multiple, nay, infinite universes. "Everything happens somewhere." Every choice that's made, is made differently somewhere else, every molecule that moves, moved differently in another world.

I don't have full access to my memories, so can't answer your questions in detail. Most of the memories of my life are actually from late teenage and adulthood. I feel like that whole chain of events happened rather differently in my universe. I remember there *were* dark spores though. I'll meditate on it, and see if I can come up with an answer for both of us.

2. I just don't seem to have time or energy to write fanfic any more. Ah well.
Sunday, November 22nd, 2009 06:05 am (UTC)
I'm fairly prolific when it comes to writing, so once I get back into writing Digimon again, I can output enough to make you happy. :P After you finish what I already sent.

Actually, talking to you got me back into Digimon after I'd fallen in and then out again. Rawr, my groove was screwed up.

I've tried meditating on memories, but the problem for me is I need *permission* to get memories, as their owners are still with them. And like I said, if I find something particularly disturbing, I can get locked out really quick.
Sunday, November 22nd, 2009 06:12 am (UTC)
Hmmm. That's interesting. I interact with my past as my past, but I do know others who interact with their past selves as concurrent coherent entities like soulbonds.

We'll have to continue this later- It's one am and I heading to bed. :D
Monday, November 23rd, 2009 01:18 am (UTC)
In an infinite number of universes, given the chancy nature of evolution and the survival of Homo sapiens there would also be a majority of worlds where stars in their courses turn and there is no life to gaze upon them. Since Homo sapiens itself was an East African form of ape that had an utterly unpredictable impact on its planet and in fact the most likely event is that sapience, which from what taphonomy records (which itself is none too pleasing in an optimists' perspective) never evolves at all.....

It is not so much "I am Ozymandias, King of Kings, look on my works ye mighty and despair" as a world absent such works to begin with. It always amuses me as an alien from an alternate universe where humankind remained one among four geographically distributed species of Afro-Eurasian apes and my civilization occupied Earth to ponder that most people's imagination of alternate timelines is limited to "What if the Confederacy beat the Union" or "What if Nazi Germany won WWII?". And interestingly enough, both of those occasions are vanishingly rare in the multiverse, and long-lasting versions of both rarer still.

Weird night for me tonight.

H'vorxixnon H'ven Soroundon.
Monday, November 23rd, 2009 01:09 am (UTC)
If I may intrude for just a second-most such universes would be barren of any life at all, the vast majority of those with life might be perpetual Moneroverses, and then the vast majority of eukaryotic universes would, presuming that the precise set of circumstances that lead to the formation of the Solar System even occur and eukaryotic life happens, have entirely different and unpredictable biologies happen, so that the sum total of universes where humans, period, exist is quite tiny next to the vast and immense span of a Multiverse where the similarly-vast span of the Universe where Earth is not but an atom is in turn but less than an atom in the Multiverse.

That would be the real scenario, though in an infinite number of universes anything could or would happen. And just as if Digimon is real, that would also imply that things like the Domination of Draka are real. Digimon is...eh....but the idea of a realistic Domination would be quite intriguing for a humanity even more possessed of the idiot ball than here and also quite frightening.

Meh...TL;DR woo. >.>
Sunday, November 22nd, 2009 08:58 pm (UTC)
I want to be evil.
Sunday, November 22nd, 2009 09:34 pm (UTC)
5: you know you can do this with certain restaurants?
Monday, November 23rd, 2009 05:26 pm (UTC)
I clicked on the wrong thing, that was meant as a reply to the entry itself.
Tuesday, November 24th, 2009 04:42 pm (UTC)
Yeah but that costs money, not just printer ink. XD
Tuesday, November 24th, 2009 04:42 pm (UTC)
1. What do you think is the most important historical event of the 20th century and why?

2. What is the literary device or cliche you hate the most and why?

3. If you had the choice to either be killed on the spot or live as you are now until the heat death or the universe, which would you choose?

4. What's your favorite book?

5. What does your username mean?
Monday, November 23rd, 2009 12:59 am (UTC)
I am fracking bored want to be evil.
Tuesday, November 24th, 2009 04:45 pm (UTC)
1. You don't post on LJ very often, what keeps you coming back? (Not that we don't <3 you)

2. You can rewrite the ending of any story you chose, from any point in the story. What do you pick, and what's your cut-off point?

3. You can have 1 superpower. Which one?

4. If you could change one thing about yourself, appearance/personality/something that happened in your past, what would it be and why?

5. Do you wear glasses?