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Thursday, April 29th, 2010 10:29 am (UTC)
Sigh.

We weren't trolls. I loved that community. My partner was just very blunt and tactless, but her views weren't in any way trollish. Just honest.

I'm a student, meaning I'm not exactly rich... I wouldn't give the comm money if I was just there to piss people off. I made some mistakes, but it was never my intention to troll. Only to ask questions that I thought were legitimate. People got defensive, I got defensive - it went both ways.

If you want to remember us as trolls, that's your prerogative. But everyone in that comm who knew us outside of the comm understood where we were coming from.

That's the last I'll say on it, though. I don't want to start anything in Mordax's journal (again).
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Thursday, April 29th, 2010 12:55 pm (UTC)
Your partner's views actually were pretty trollish even if she were sincere about them. In fact, you guys were some of the most epic trolls in the fucking community. Rereading Sonic's posts make me laugh my ass off, actually. "So, I kinda heard you guys were retarded... I mean, don't get me wrong, that's GREAT, and everything, but..."

Yeah. You guys fucked up. I don't think anyone is still mad at you for it, but the fact that you're still upset about it, thinking you were completely innocent and that everyone else was in the wrong for NOOOOOT BEING ABLE TO HANDLE YOUR AWESOME OPINIOOOONS doesn't make you look particularly good.
Thursday, April 29th, 2010 01:08 pm (UTC)
No no, like I said above... I made some mistakes. You might not believe me at this stage, but I literally begged Sonic not to post some of that stuff because of how inflammatory it was. I was scared we'd get kicked. Then when she DID post, she felt ganged up on and asked me to back her up. She didn't FORCE me to... it was my own stupid choice, feeling trapped. I don't think I'm innocent, but I do think that I was kind of caught in the fall-out of Sonic's belligerent posts and that anyone who knew me outside of the comm knew that I wasn't a troll and that I was just trying to maintain damage control. I'm only still upset because I loved that community and was having a lot of fun there until I made the mistake of begging Sonic to join. I'm a better poster when I'm alone.
Thursday, April 29th, 2010 01:11 pm (UTC)
Aww crap. Since it was a different person, I forgot I said above I was going to stop there.

If anyone wants to talk to me about any of that stuff, message me on my LJ - but seriously, I did fuck up. I never intended to troll, and I feel sad that my previous record in the comm of posting sensibly and participating wasn't enough to protect me from the banhammer. But yeah, clinging on isn't going to earn me any favours.
Thursday, April 29th, 2010 01:14 pm (UTC)
No worries, dude. You can scrap it out here if you feel like. I'm a voyeur. ^__^
Thursday, April 29th, 2010 01:28 pm (UTC)
I don't want to fight. I feel like I can't meet a middle ground here, and no one will believe me that I was sincere and never intended to 'troll' x.x That's not to say I'm blameless, because I know I messed up big time by not telling Sonic to just shut up when she got really shirty, and my defending her I put myself right in the firing line. I just wish that people didn't have such selective memories and could remember that I was actually a friendly and talkative member of the comm long before she joined ^^; All I wanted to do was talk openly about things that the fic'kin community is often very 'hush-hush' about... but it was NEVER my intention to discredit or insult anyone. If these guys would just give me a chance, like some of the others did, I think we might even get along. But I suppose it's unrealistic to keep hoping for some great love-in where all is forgiven and forgotten :P

So yeah, tl;dr - every time this comes up, it just goes in circles. So I should just do what I should have done in the first place and shut up and move on ^^;